Before Now

It has been a lifetime since the last time I opened my eyes and saw humanity for it’s truth self,

It has been a day since I have last smiled the way a mother intends her child to,

It has been a week since I have last done an activity that would let me showcase my skills,

it has been a month since I have last benefited from my hard work and efforts,

It has been a year since I have believed things will get better, that life has more to offer than selfishness and greed.

Time is valuable, but because of humanity, because of society time is nothing but money and how much of it one being can steal from another.



I’ve always managed to sit by and listen to what others say, never really listening what my own thoughts tell me to do. Considering my own feelings or my own way of life. I question myself on a daily basis and I can never find an answer for my behavior. To live is to express your own happiness and style, to have dreams is to show your personality and potential, to have ambition is to set in motion one’s motivation and reason for pursuing glory and success.

What do I strive for?

What is my motivation?

What are the dreams I pursue?

Though all these questions and more appear in my mind, the answers never come along. I am clouded, my motives unknown and happiness not obtained. I am an individual trapped in a cycle of undefined nonsense.

Will I ever obtain my answers?

Will I ever figure out my motives? my dreams?

Time can only tell, but sadly, time is limited.