Before Now

It has been a lifetime since the last time I opened my eyes and saw humanity for it’s truth self,

It has been a day since I have last smiled the way a mother intends her child to,

It has been a week since I have last done an activity that would let me showcase my skills,

it has been a month since I have last benefited from my hard work and efforts,

It has been a year since I have believed things will get better, that life has more to offer than selfishness and greed.

Time is valuable, but because of humanity, because of society time is nothing but money and how much of it one being can steal from another.


Delusion or Reality

Do you ever think about delusions?

Humans have forever trapped themselves within delusions to experience a world of imaginary bliss and satisfaction.

It is within these delusions that reality fades, but is it reality that is a delusion or is the delusion a reality?

Humans, for a millennium have fallen to a false reality when true life becomes difficult to imagine.

Happiness, Bliss, Love, Relaxation, Lust, Power, and laughter.

All these can be enjoyed in both the real world and false, but which is more enjoyable?

The mind fools each one of use, no one is deprived of a delusion no more then the next, yet we’ve succumbed to the imaginary reality that has becomes so real it is no longer  easy to differentiate between the two.

Reality could be when your sleeping or when you are “awake”

 Is this a delusion selling you its wonders, proving itself as “real”

“To sleep is to dream and to dream is to live”

Whether it is a delusion you are encased in or reality.

As long as your happy, is that not all that matters?



I’ve always managed to sit by and listen to what others say, never really listening what my own thoughts tell me to do. Considering my own feelings or my own way of life. I question myself on a daily basis and I can never find an answer for my behavior. To live is to express your own happiness and style, to have dreams is to show your personality and potential, to have ambition is to set in motion one’s motivation and reason for pursuing glory and success.

What do I strive for?

What is my motivation?

What are the dreams I pursue?

Though all these questions and more appear in my mind, the answers never come along. I am clouded, my motives unknown and happiness not obtained. I am an individual trapped in a cycle of undefined nonsense.

Will I ever obtain my answers?

Will I ever figure out my motives? my dreams?

Time can only tell, but sadly, time is limited.