I’ve always managed to sit by and listen to what others say, never really listening what my own thoughts tell me to do. Considering my own feelings or my own way of life. I question myself on a daily basis and I can never find an answer for my behavior. To live is to express your own happiness and style, to have dreams is to show your personality and potential, to have ambition is to set in motion one’s motivation and reason for pursuing glory and success.

What do I strive for?

What is my motivation?

What are the dreams I pursue?

Though all these questions and more appear in my mind, the answers never come along. I am clouded, my motives unknown and happiness not obtained. I am an individual trapped in a cycle of undefined nonsense.

Will I ever obtain my answers?

Will I ever figure out my motives? my dreams?

Time can only tell, but sadly, time is limited.


Simplistic Understanding

It’s sad when you have to look at the things around you and truly ask yourself…

“Is this all… I can accomplish?”

Not that you do not have the ability to move forward, but that people will forever be in your way no matter what you try to do.

It is only natural for human beings to be selfish and jealous of others, it is honestly one way people tend to find motivation to move forward, but at the end of the day it is all for not.

People. . . Human beings have a strong urge you succeed, to become better then the next person. This is our own version of a food chain or popularity chain. Constantly striving to be better, to do greater things and become known.

Everybody has their own reason and their own goals, but it is all for not.

Forever stuck in this loop will only cause frustration, stress, and and earlier grave for some.

The lime is call that for a reason, it is poisonous, sickening to those who get a taste it and deadly to the ones who obtain it.

Simple goals become impossible to obtain and the by the time you reach your most simple desire you’re neck deep in some sort of debt, worrying about saving money, or both.

Humans make life so much more difficult when it is truly the easiest thing on the face of the planet to understand.


Life’s Standards


I do realize that in life there are hardships, right? we all understand that life is about hard work and “equal opportunity” but is this really practiced or is it some sort of plot that is used to deceive us? whichever it is, I know that I am not benefiting from anything.

I look at life in a sense of being, picturing how is life being lived on every part of the world and what kind of difficulties are they dealing with.

Not understand my own issues and problems is already impossible, so trying to think about theirs differently isn’t.


Question Time!

Thinking about how I struggle and work hard for scraps is quite frustrating, who wants to be born and have to struggle to get by until the day you die? Just think about it for a moment.

I was never asked to be born, I didn’t ask my “parents” to enjoy making love and produce me and throw me into this crazy backwards world we call “home” just to struggle, never get anywhere, and die.

Now of course I understand people will tell you,’Hold your head up.” or “look at the bright side of things.” or even “go to college and get a degree to make more money.” if you truly think about it, all that really means nothing in the larger scale of how that actually works for somebody.

Hard work barely gets you anywhere, people go to college to spend 10x more money that they do not have.  Get a degree that may or may not even matter in getting a job (Career), just to be in debt and still pay off more money that you do not have.



Now then you put all this together all I get is that unless you act “Unintelligent” you will not get anywhere. People drop out of college when they get a job that pays a lot of money because money is what matters, money talks, and money gets things done.

why do I have to pay for an education to better myself and my country in which I live? Why must I struggle in the land I was born in?

The rich may seem smart, but it’s a front their are social classes for a reason. When parents say,”Stay in a child’s place.” it has way more meaning then what you think.

I’m not afraid to work, I am not lazy or unmotivated and just complaining, but after so many years of learning and watching society cripple itself on simplistic values and selfish ideals. I can only vent in some ways.

You work starting age 16, until your at least 70 if not earlier or even later. Unless you do something “self-demeaning” like drinking your on urine on YouTube or dropping out of college to play basketball or even to sell drugs. It is very unlikely your going to get anywhere in life.

Sure handwork pays off, but only 10% of people can say that, but that only depends on what their dreams and goals are.


My First Step!

I am ready to move forward with my life, this blog is a part of me now and I will forever post, poems, what I think about this everyday thing we call life and my stories that I enjoy writing so much.

Today I have defeated what has been blocking my path for so long, I have overcome an obstacle that has held me down for long and the only person to blame for that is me, I am ready to move forward. I Demi FoxGod am ready to take my life in the direction I wish it to go and I will not let anything get in my way again.

My life is mines and mines alone I have no way to get it back once it ends. I can only start anew so many times and I will use each time wisely. I am young, strong, smart, and motivated. I have dreams and goals, ambitions that need to be set forth and obtained by any and all means for my happiness is important and of utmost priority in my life.

I plan to take my writing to the next level and doing what I love until my last breath! My first book will have ten chapters. and I can’t wait to finish it. It may be a few weeks until its complete, but I am going to work hard to make this book a master piece so I can share it with the world.